Late night revelations

Well, my old blog has disappeared – either that or I can’t remember what it was actually called - so I’ve started a new one!

It occurred to me yesterday morning that I really am ALL ALONE. Very recently my (now) ex-boyfriend moved out, leaving me in the apartment all alone until the lease expires in February. It hasn’t really clicked though, that I really am on my own there! Yesterday morning I slipped in the shower while I was getting ready for work. It would have been funny if it didn’t hurt so much, or if it happened to someone else. Anyway, I grabbed the shower curtain to try and stop myself falling backward and only ended up ripping the shower curtain off it’s stupid little hangers and bringing it down on top of me. I hit my hip on the side of the bath on the way down and while I was lying on the shower floor, swearing like a trucker and trying to get the plastic off my mouth so I could breathe again – it clicked that had I knocked myself out…I could be there for days before someone found me. And who would it be?

I tried to forget about it during the day, but for the first time last night – I heard noises everywhere. I swear to god I heard someone breaking in through the kitchen window and by the time I’d g’d myself up enough to go and see who it was, they would have been through the freaking window! Usually I would have nudged the ex and told him I’d heard something. He would have gotten up straight away and returned seconds later to tell me I’d forgotten to close the kitchen window and the blinds were blowing around (turns out that’s what it was last night too). But for the first time I actually thought about what the hell I would do if something did happen. My great epiphany? I’m screwed.

This morning I had a shower sitting down. I was a little freaked out I was going to fall!

Music in my head: All I want for Christmas. How the hell did THAT get there?